I have continued my weight loss and am at 85lbs lost now. I have had a harder time losing lately because as my doctor says it's because now I have to "work" at it as opposed to having to it just fall off. I had been sick about a month ago and I have seem to lose the restriction and can feel that at times can eat anything and any quantity. I spoke with him regarding this and he feels that I may need an adjustment and I will be seeing him in a few short weeks.
Things around here have been keeping my incredibly busy and when I say things I mean mainly Aaron. He's 8 1/2 months old now and crawling like you wouldn't believe and starting to "walk" around hanging on to the furniture. My favorite thing to do to him lately is when I know that he wants to be picked up when I am not in the room that I walk to the other side of the room and make him crawl to me crying the whole way like I am torturing him or something. :) I know that he will be walking soon enough and then running and then I don't know what I am going to do. Lately I think he's been getting me back for being such a good night sleeper for so long and about the last 5 weeks or so has not slept through the night at all. I surely miss a full nights sleep but have learned to live with it.
One thing that I have noticed lately is how much I miss hanging out with friends. I try to keep in touch but the few close friends that I have live too far away for any of us to get together any time soon and we all have young kids so that doesn't help either at this moment. I am hoping to spend some time out in Indiana this summer as well as looking forward to another visit from a friend as well. I guess that I have to reach out more and try and reconnect with these wonderful awesome girls! I just hope that everyone I have been thinking about lately are doing well and so are all of their boys and girls!!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
The second goal
So in an effort to not look at the big picture I have been setting small 20 lb goals for myself. I am proud to say that I have now lost 80lbs and have reached my second goal of 250lbs!!!
The slight depression has relatively cleared up but does tend to rear its ugly head when I have a bad food day. For the most part I am good. So it's on to my 3rd goal. I'm gonna keep trucking to 230lbs and then life may change again as who knows what will happen!!
The slight depression has relatively cleared up but does tend to rear its ugly head when I have a bad food day. For the most part I am good. So it's on to my 3rd goal. I'm gonna keep trucking to 230lbs and then life may change again as who knows what will happen!!
Friday, November 26, 2010
A first Thanksgiving
I have wanted to do another post for like the last week but just hadn't time to actually sit and type it. I have been thinking about this post for a couple of weeks actually because I have been having a hard time dealing with some things lately. I went to the doctors a couple of weeks ago and told him that I was feeling kind of down because I was missing food. I said that it's not the fact that I can't eat the food it's because I can't eat the food the way that I want too. For example I can eat a burger without the bun and no fries but what I would truly enjoy right now is the whole experience of a good burger fixings and all and a side of fries. I am figuring that I am going through what I would have gone through last year if I hadn't gotten pregnant and he seemed to agree. So this truly was my first Thanksgiving with the band. Oh and by the way I did just fine and I had my turkey and ham and all the trimmings and it was good even if it was at work and not my family! Oh and for the update I'm at officially 253 lbs. and have lost 77 lbs. and I am 3 lbs from my second goal of 250! To which I cannot even remember the last time I was that weight. I'm thinking maybe 10 yrs ago??
Another first Thanksgiving is the fact that it's Steve's first with the band as well. He is doing well I think but he hasn't been adjusted yet but he will be in a few weeks. He's been losing weight and was 12 lbs done when he went in for his first checkup. He doesn't like to talk about it too much so that's all I will say about that! Ha Ha!
The last first but certainly not least is Aaron's first Thanksgiving. He is almost 7 months old now and really really trying to crawl forward that is. He has the rolling and the moving backwards down pat but he just can't seem to get it all coordinated yet with going forward. I know it's gonna be soon and can't wait. He continues to be the joy of our lives and is always keeping me entertained. I definitely do miss him when I have to work but it's all best in the end as the days I get to spend with him are priceless!
All in all it was a bunch of firsts for all of us this Thanksgiving season and knowing that this holiday went well the future doesn't seem so dim and I'm actually looking forward to the Christmas season!
Another first Thanksgiving is the fact that it's Steve's first with the band as well. He is doing well I think but he hasn't been adjusted yet but he will be in a few weeks. He's been losing weight and was 12 lbs done when he went in for his first checkup. He doesn't like to talk about it too much so that's all I will say about that! Ha Ha!
The last first but certainly not least is Aaron's first Thanksgiving. He is almost 7 months old now and really really trying to crawl forward that is. He has the rolling and the moving backwards down pat but he just can't seem to get it all coordinated yet with going forward. I know it's gonna be soon and can't wait. He continues to be the joy of our lives and is always keeping me entertained. I definitely do miss him when I have to work but it's all best in the end as the days I get to spend with him are priceless!
All in all it was a bunch of firsts for all of us this Thanksgiving season and knowing that this holiday went well the future doesn't seem so dim and I'm actually looking forward to the Christmas season!
Monday, November 15, 2010
A continuing saga
I have been missing foods like crazy lately and the only reason that I can think of as to why is I miss the experience. I can eat anything that I want but the issue is I always have to modify the meal in some way. I can't sit and eat a big burger and fries or Portillo's beef because I can't eat the bread. So for me I have to deconstruct the meal and only eat parts of it oh and fries are definitely out of the question. I do have some good news though as of this morning I am down a total of 76 lbs! That makes me feel better overall and my surgeon is just as thrilled that I have lost that much so fast. He told me on Thursday that he normally looks for his patients to lose about 70 lbs in a year and he's so impressed with me because I have done 76 in 6 months! So for me there is great news and not so great news as I still miss food.
On another note Steve is doing great in fact I think he is doing better than I did when I had the surgery! He bounced back so fast and when he had his post op appointment he had already last 12 lbs! I am so proud of him one for going through the surgery and two for being able to bounce back so quickly after having the surgery!
So together we continue this journey and I know this is all for the best as we will both be healthier for keeping up with our 6 month old.
On another note Steve is doing great in fact I think he is doing better than I did when I had the surgery! He bounced back so fast and when he had his post op appointment he had already last 12 lbs! I am so proud of him one for going through the surgery and two for being able to bounce back so quickly after having the surgery!
So together we continue this journey and I know this is all for the best as we will both be healthier for keeping up with our 6 month old.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
A new chapter
Today is going to be an interesting day. All the while I have been struggling with living the "band life" I had no idea well some idea that my husband was watching me and struggling with decision himself as to whether or not he wanted to go through the same stuff that I do. Well about 3 months ago he decided that for Aaron he wanted to go through with it. He chose to do the lap band as well.
I don't know exactly what his thoughts are on the whole subject he tends not to be very vocal about those things. Don't get me wrong we talk about things but there are certain subjects that he just doesn't talk much about and his weight is a big one. So today at 1:30 this afternoon his life will change forever. I for him hope that he will have the same success as I have been having and that by Christmas he will have dropped about 30-40 lbs. I know that he will be happy and I will be happy for him. One thing he recently told me while he was spending the day with Aaron was that he was so thankful to me for giving him Aaron and that he loved us both immensely! He is the best!
So pray for both of us as we continue on this journey now as we together head towards a healthier lifestyle and that because of this we will both be able to enjoy that little boy that our Great Creator has brought into our lives.
I don't know exactly what his thoughts are on the whole subject he tends not to be very vocal about those things. Don't get me wrong we talk about things but there are certain subjects that he just doesn't talk much about and his weight is a big one. So today at 1:30 this afternoon his life will change forever. I for him hope that he will have the same success as I have been having and that by Christmas he will have dropped about 30-40 lbs. I know that he will be happy and I will be happy for him. One thing he recently told me while he was spending the day with Aaron was that he was so thankful to me for giving him Aaron and that he loved us both immensely! He is the best!
So pray for both of us as we continue on this journey now as we together head towards a healthier lifestyle and that because of this we will both be able to enjoy that little boy that our Great Creator has brought into our lives.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Never doubt!
I have learned in the last week that no matter what happens don't ever doubt! I stepped on the scale yesterday and I was at 259!! I have broke through that 260 mark and I couldn't be happier. The bummer of it all is now I have to deal with my baby having a cold but compared to each other the cold ain't so bad. I also went jean shopping yesterday with my best friend and thank god for her because she sat with Aaron while I went and shopped.
I have to hand it to the wonderful women at Lane Bryant in Bolingbrook without them I wouldn't have been able to see myself in the size that I bought! First things first sizes I was a size 26 pants and a 30/32 shirt for the most part but it always depends on the cut of the piece. I see myself as a pear shape and I carry most of my weight in my stomach. I think the hardest part of putting on a new pair of jeans is seeing the person that I have become and not the person that I was. It's hard not to see myself at 330lbs instead of 259lbs. So like I said I have to hand it to the women at Lane Bryant who convinced me to try on a size 20 when I thought I was a size 22 and the most shocking part that I FIT into a size 20! I ended up buying two new size 20 pairs of jeans and what I enjoy most about them was how fitted they were. They really compliment my skinny legs and even accent places that I never thought needed accenting. So here I sit in my new jeans confident (ok semi-confident) that I look good.
The difficult part of yesterday was lunch at chili's with my BFF. I ordered soup and salad and maybe had 6 bites between the two and no matter what I did nothing helped. Usually I have no problems especially with soup but yesterday was a problem. I at one point said to my friend that the hardest part of living with the band is you really miss sometimes the foods you no longer can eat. In my life french fries and the reason I say that is because there were two women eating in the booth across the way from us both eating french fries and I found out that is something that I truly miss a lot. When I think of all the foods I can't eat anymore I get a little depressed but then I think of my babykins that I did this for in the first place and I look at it as something that I can live without. While I struggle daily with the life that I chose I see that baby and know that I did it all for him and his little brother or sister that will at some point come into our lives (no not pregnant currently). For that it makes this whole journey a whole lot more worth it!
I have to hand it to the wonderful women at Lane Bryant in Bolingbrook without them I wouldn't have been able to see myself in the size that I bought! First things first sizes I was a size 26 pants and a 30/32 shirt for the most part but it always depends on the cut of the piece. I see myself as a pear shape and I carry most of my weight in my stomach. I think the hardest part of putting on a new pair of jeans is seeing the person that I have become and not the person that I was. It's hard not to see myself at 330lbs instead of 259lbs. So like I said I have to hand it to the women at Lane Bryant who convinced me to try on a size 20 when I thought I was a size 22 and the most shocking part that I FIT into a size 20! I ended up buying two new size 20 pairs of jeans and what I enjoy most about them was how fitted they were. They really compliment my skinny legs and even accent places that I never thought needed accenting. So here I sit in my new jeans confident (ok semi-confident) that I look good.
The difficult part of yesterday was lunch at chili's with my BFF. I ordered soup and salad and maybe had 6 bites between the two and no matter what I did nothing helped. Usually I have no problems especially with soup but yesterday was a problem. I at one point said to my friend that the hardest part of living with the band is you really miss sometimes the foods you no longer can eat. In my life french fries and the reason I say that is because there were two women eating in the booth across the way from us both eating french fries and I found out that is something that I truly miss a lot. When I think of all the foods I can't eat anymore I get a little depressed but then I think of my babykins that I did this for in the first place and I look at it as something that I can live without. While I struggle daily with the life that I chose I see that baby and know that I did it all for him and his little brother or sister that will at some point come into our lives (no not pregnant currently). For that it makes this whole journey a whole lot more worth it!
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
New Clothes
So here I am in the present day as of this morning I'm weighing in at 262 lbs and have lost just 2 lbs shy of 70 and now am toying with the idea of buying a few new pieces of clothing. I must tell you that this terrifies me more than anything that I have gone through with this entire surgical process.
I just recently went out to visit some very close to my heart friends and while there went shopping and happened upon a clothing store. My friend said to me if you want we can go in and I had to agree. Stepping into the store wasn't the worst part, the worst part was knowing if I found anything that I liked I would have to try it on and if I tried it on I felt like it would look terrible on me making me look super fat because it was too small. Well I did find something I like, a pair of jeans that were two sizes smaller than what I would wear normally. Ok so I tried them on and you know what they fit! The best part was walking out of the dressing room and my friend telling me that I looked great! That compliment made the whole experience that much better and knowing that my friend does read this I am going to send out a huge thank you for making my first shopping experience a great one!
The one thing that I have noticed in the last few weeks is the scale is not going down as fast as it once was and that in part is my fault as I have finished breastfeeding and therefore the calories don't get burned off as fast as they once used too. This little fact is a little discouraging as I would have liked the weight to keep "falling" off but I know that I wasn't going to nurse forever so I had to get it done with. I have decided that now is a good time to start getting involved with a gym and start working out. I haven't done this before because it was just too difficult as I was just too heavy and any little workout would leave super sore and achy. I for the most part deal with lots of aches and pains daily and I think that this would just because the weight is being redistributed on my hips and legs. I have talked with another friend of my that has had the lap band and has lost approximately 90 lbs and she says that her biggest pain was in the hips and legs as well. I also know that I need to find a personal trainer for at least the first couple of times that I go to help me establish a routine and what I need to do.
I have good food days and bad food days. When it's good I can eat almost anything without having any problems but when it's bad I can barely eat anything and spend most of my meal running back and forth from the bathroom trying again and again to eat but nothing works. I have learned a lot through almost 18 months of living with the lap band. I know that not only do I not regret my decision but am happy with the results and what it has taught me.
I wanted with this blog to share my weight loss journey from beginning to end. My goal is to get down to approximately 180 lbs when all is said and done and this includes the plastic surgery that I know I will eventually need and going through at least one more pregnancy. I have been able to put down the last 18 months into words and now want to focus on the here and now. More to come as always!
I just recently went out to visit some very close to my heart friends and while there went shopping and happened upon a clothing store. My friend said to me if you want we can go in and I had to agree. Stepping into the store wasn't the worst part, the worst part was knowing if I found anything that I liked I would have to try it on and if I tried it on I felt like it would look terrible on me making me look super fat because it was too small. Well I did find something I like, a pair of jeans that were two sizes smaller than what I would wear normally. Ok so I tried them on and you know what they fit! The best part was walking out of the dressing room and my friend telling me that I looked great! That compliment made the whole experience that much better and knowing that my friend does read this I am going to send out a huge thank you for making my first shopping experience a great one!
The one thing that I have noticed in the last few weeks is the scale is not going down as fast as it once was and that in part is my fault as I have finished breastfeeding and therefore the calories don't get burned off as fast as they once used too. This little fact is a little discouraging as I would have liked the weight to keep "falling" off but I know that I wasn't going to nurse forever so I had to get it done with. I have decided that now is a good time to start getting involved with a gym and start working out. I haven't done this before because it was just too difficult as I was just too heavy and any little workout would leave super sore and achy. I for the most part deal with lots of aches and pains daily and I think that this would just because the weight is being redistributed on my hips and legs. I have talked with another friend of my that has had the lap band and has lost approximately 90 lbs and she says that her biggest pain was in the hips and legs as well. I also know that I need to find a personal trainer for at least the first couple of times that I go to help me establish a routine and what I need to do.
I have good food days and bad food days. When it's good I can eat almost anything without having any problems but when it's bad I can barely eat anything and spend most of my meal running back and forth from the bathroom trying again and again to eat but nothing works. I have learned a lot through almost 18 months of living with the lap band. I know that not only do I not regret my decision but am happy with the results and what it has taught me.
I wanted with this blog to share my weight loss journey from beginning to end. My goal is to get down to approximately 180 lbs when all is said and done and this includes the plastic surgery that I know I will eventually need and going through at least one more pregnancy. I have been able to put down the last 18 months into words and now want to focus on the here and now. More to come as always!
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